I’ve been “stuck” at home lately while work is being done on my house. I’m used to being able to go to local OA meetings pretty much any day I want to, but right now I’m almost three weeks into a stay-at-home experience filled with the sounds of noisy tools: hammers, power saws, nail guns….
It took me a full week to realize that I could pick up an OA tool I rarely use—phone meetings. When I finally dialed in, I lucked into a really good speaker meeting and heard an inspiring story of recovery – an OA member sharing “what it was like, what happened to change that, and what it’s like now.” I was filled with gratitude for the ability to join a meeting right from my home, and for a fellow OA member willing to share her story of HOPE. It turned my noisy day right around!
On another phone meeting, there were 25 people on the line, but the moderator had to ask several times for someone to give service by reading the 12 Steps. Everyone stayed silent. This is something I’ve not experienced in my face-to-face meetings, so I was surprised. I felt like a “visitor” to the meeting, and waited, assuming a “regular” would jump in to do service. Then I realized that perhaps others were multi-tasking (as was I) and could not unmute to read. I quickly dried my hands on a dishtowel, rushed upstairs to get an OA book, and was back in time to read the 12 Traditions for the meeting. Magically, that very small act of service (another OA Tool) made me feel useful and changed my day for the better.
After the workers left today, I noticed a nail in the driveway. Then another, and another… My story of hope is this: In the “old days” I would have called the contractor and demanded they return immediately. Then, because this was what I always had to do with anger, I would have gotten something to eat.
But the 12 Steps have taught me a better way of living…one that allows me to give myself and others a break. I went into the house, got a small bowl, and spent the next thirty minutes outside in a light rain, carefully scanning the ground. I filled the little bowl with nails, feeling a small sense of satisfaction as I spotted each one. Somehow, I actually enjoyed the task! :)
So grateful for OA!
Beverly M. – Region 1