I heard it called 'God', as a toddler of three
and during my childhood, it was inside of me
I sat in the church pew, I prayed to the sky
I sought out some 'big guy', but I didn't know why
upwards and skyward, they said good children go
but should you be bad, you will go down below
so what did it mean then, to be good or be bad?
I soon came to realize, it was thoughts that I had
I fought those thoughts often, inside my own head
but could never control, those things that I did
rot full with trouble, I stumbled through years
ever with something, to drown out my fears
was always a crutch, that I used as a power
I drank or I gambled, or I ate by the hour
nothing external, could help set me free
nor was it willpower, it was inside of me
a gentle voice whispered, It won't kill the pain
but off in the darkness, the food called my name
I ate and I ate, and I pushed that pain down
but one day I heard it, that comforting sound
It offered to guide me, to free me from strife
and with no strings attached, It rebuilt my life
but what should I call you? I questioned that voice
I'm of your understanding, so my name is your choice
I have been called father, and some call me God
others say H.P. one even said Claude
of my own understanding? I glanced at the sky
if I get to choose, I'll call you 'big guy'
so I trusted that power, that was greater than me
I had tried it alone, but had never been free
the first step, he said, you need to surrender
and in the next two steps, a faith you must render
step four and step five, are a moral house cleaning
where voicing your harms, is a chance at redeeming
in step 6 you become willing, to turn things around
to accept you are powerless a new start you've found
by step 7 you find, you're less likely to stumble
a new person inside, as you learn to become humble
at times you've harmed others, or family and friends
in steps 8 and step 9 you can make amends
in step ten you review, the day that has passed
making amends, leaving things in the past
then it urged me to listen a message was there
to find the solution you reach out in prayer
step 12 is of bringing, that message to others
those who still suffer, your sisters and brothers
to keep what you have, that peace and that calm
you have to serve others, and pass it along
so I live in recovery, one day at a time
that life of the past, I have left it behind
I live for the moment now, hour by hour
that 'big guy' walks with me, as my higher power
Diane D
and during my childhood, it was inside of me
I sat in the church pew, I prayed to the sky
I sought out some 'big guy', but I didn't know why
upwards and skyward, they said good children go
but should you be bad, you will go down below
so what did it mean then, to be good or be bad?
I soon came to realize, it was thoughts that I had
I fought those thoughts often, inside my own head
but could never control, those things that I did
rot full with trouble, I stumbled through years
ever with something, to drown out my fears
was always a crutch, that I used as a power
I drank or I gambled, or I ate by the hour
nothing external, could help set me free
nor was it willpower, it was inside of me
a gentle voice whispered, It won't kill the pain
but off in the darkness, the food called my name
I ate and I ate, and I pushed that pain down
but one day I heard it, that comforting sound
It offered to guide me, to free me from strife
and with no strings attached, It rebuilt my life
but what should I call you? I questioned that voice
I'm of your understanding, so my name is your choice
I have been called father, and some call me God
others say H.P. one even said Claude
of my own understanding? I glanced at the sky
if I get to choose, I'll call you 'big guy'
so I trusted that power, that was greater than me
I had tried it alone, but had never been free
the first step, he said, you need to surrender
and in the next two steps, a faith you must render
step four and step five, are a moral house cleaning
where voicing your harms, is a chance at redeeming
in step 6 you become willing, to turn things around
to accept you are powerless a new start you've found
by step 7 you find, you're less likely to stumble
a new person inside, as you learn to become humble
at times you've harmed others, or family and friends
in steps 8 and step 9 you can make amends
in step ten you review, the day that has passed
making amends, leaving things in the past
then it urged me to listen a message was there
to find the solution you reach out in prayer
step 12 is of bringing, that message to others
those who still suffer, your sisters and brothers
to keep what you have, that peace and that calm
you have to serve others, and pass it along
so I live in recovery, one day at a time
that life of the past, I have left it behind
I live for the moment now, hour by hour
that 'big guy' walks with me, as my higher power
Diane D