Thank HP I have a program right now. I have a depth of resources: personal, spiritual, social (with distancing!) and tools to help me navigate my wide swinging emotions. I am safe with my full cupboard because I eat three meals a day with nothing but life in between. As I shared with my husband: if I eat crazy, I will be crazy. The equation is just that simple.
So for today I don't go there. When fear grows strong, I have my meetings. The online meetings have been a god send to me. I do service hosting and that has given me purpose (and a lot of technical angst butt I am learning). I find that face to face online feels like a "real" meeting. I have been gratified to see so many familiar faces. It is inspiring to see folks overcoming their fear of the new to join together in this high tech way.
I am establishing a new routine to replace my old go out in the world ways. "For the duration" means I do not know when this will end. I do not know how this will end. And I am NOT in charge of this. Maddening! I do have my HP and my HP knows all this and more. So I am willing to lean on HP and get a safe HP embrace to replace all the hugs I am missing.
Sending you virtual hugs and well wishes.