“I’m just not willing…Please help!”
Oddly enough that has become one of my favorite prayers.
What are these things I need that prayer for in my program?
Should I give up bread? Maybe my portions at dinner should be smaller, (but it takes that much to satisfy me, and I just don’t want to eat less).
I struggle, I wrestle with the thoughts. In complete honesty I say to my Higher Power, God, “Please help me in my unwillingness. I don’t think I’m willing to go deeper with trusting you.”
So I pray. I spend time with God and keep being honest about how I’m feeling.
Suddenly, the thought crosses my mind, “Maybe I should try measuring a few things.” Nothing drastic, my oatmeal for breakfast, my serving of peanut butter, my salad dressing. A new level of honesty, a new, different feeling of peace around food, and all of a sudden, I’m not eating as much bread and it’s completely OK with me. Getting honest with my food helps me to get honest in other areas of my life as I amazingly watch as God does for me what I could never do.
I like this new level of honesty with God. I don’t have to be afraid to express how I feel. I don’t think God is surprised by it. So, I discard the old thinking that I’m doing something wrong when I express the thoughts of unwillingness dancing in my head. I grab hold of the principle of honesty, and I do the next right thing.
Oddly enough that has become one of my favorite prayers.
What are these things I need that prayer for in my program?
Should I give up bread? Maybe my portions at dinner should be smaller, (but it takes that much to satisfy me, and I just don’t want to eat less).
I struggle, I wrestle with the thoughts. In complete honesty I say to my Higher Power, God, “Please help me in my unwillingness. I don’t think I’m willing to go deeper with trusting you.”
So I pray. I spend time with God and keep being honest about how I’m feeling.
Suddenly, the thought crosses my mind, “Maybe I should try measuring a few things.” Nothing drastic, my oatmeal for breakfast, my serving of peanut butter, my salad dressing. A new level of honesty, a new, different feeling of peace around food, and all of a sudden, I’m not eating as much bread and it’s completely OK with me. Getting honest with my food helps me to get honest in other areas of my life as I amazingly watch as God does for me what I could never do.
I like this new level of honesty with God. I don’t have to be afraid to express how I feel. I don’t think God is surprised by it. So, I discard the old thinking that I’m doing something wrong when I express the thoughts of unwillingness dancing in my head. I grab hold of the principle of honesty, and I do the next right thing.