Wow! Does this ever hit home for me right now! I am sure you have heard the phrase "survival of the fittest".......I feel like some days I am barely surviving, and I certainly don't feel as though I am the fittest. I am in one of the busiest seasons of my life and I think, I can't survive this. I need to just give up. Give into the thoughts that consume me to eat and just not care. I tell myself; I am tired, and my brain is on overload. You deserve to just "let go". But then I stop and pause and look at where I was....dangerously close to 300lbs. unhappy, bitter, angry, lashing out at my family and anyone else that got in my path. Diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and the list goes on. I look at where I am today - I am in recovery. Down over 80lbs. I am no longer filled with anger and bitterness when things don't turn out the way I want them to. I have an understanding now that I am NOT alone. I am surrounded by people that know my pain and that also have recovery and they still have days that are hard. I work on giving myself credit for what I have accomplished and with my higher power and the 12 steps and the tools I can continue to be successful in this journey. I do my best; I do the next right thing and know that it truly is progress and not perfection. I will pass through this season of being so overwhelmed with my life and the business.....and I am aiming to be able to look back at this season and say, "I survived" and I am healthier and better for it. It is so easy to get discouraged and just toss in the towel. Be encouraged my fellow OA members. You can survive don't give up. Call somebody, spend some time with your higher power focusing on what really matters, you and the fact that we can't do this on our own. And that's okay. Always remember, You are not alone!
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