So terrified — will I be able to pack everything and be strong enough to handle the move? Where will I put all this stuff? I thought I had downsized when I moved six years ago! What if my house doesn’t sell? How will I afford two mortgages? How soon do I have to be fully packed and ready to leave? What if I’m still here and it starts snowing? Yikes!!!
And excited — I love the open concept. I love the sliding wood doors that can totally cover the sliding glass door. I like the kitchen. I like the light. I like the cozy feel of the fireplace. I love love love that I won’t have 14 steps to go up and down multiple times a day, especially when I’m carrying something heavy.
But growing — in trust in my Higher Power and that my decisions are being guided by HP because I consult, pray, and listen each time a decision needs to be made. I can’t count the number of times I have had to follow the instruction in the Big Book to "sit quietly when in doubt, asking only for direction and strength to meet my problems as He would have me.” (Big Book, page 13)
So many things can, and do, go wrong when one is making a big life change. In the past, I’ve depended more on my common sense and knowledge, pro and con lists, and input from numerous friends and family when making life decisions/change. Today, I have my Higher Power, my sponsor, and the unfailing program of Overeaters Anonymous to guide me and hold me up when terror changes to panic and cheer with me when excitement can’t be contained and needs to be shared. I totally agree with another Big Book writer who said "I’ve never had it so good.” (Big Book, page 420).
Paula - Region One